Blogging...

So it seems I just get worse at this blogging business. In some ways this is just a mirror of life atm - oh yeah that sounds all 'poor me' and bloody pathetic (or maybe not but the thought behind it was!) but things are a little bit wrong, well, stalled I suppose and have been for too long. I'd like to move on now please...

And as I'm no good at airing my downs in public I'm actually only managing to say "life is a bit shit" just before the up begins... It's an up that I know is coming, as I start my Masters in two weeks, that will be a focus, a feeling of doing something that has meaning. So I'm really looking forward to that but am really pissed off with not finding a job that feels right (also rather a 'poor me' statement - who has the job they actually want?) I know I am highly employable, I am a jack-of-all trades that tends to become the master of things pretty fast (apart from the master of finding a job.)

I have been surprised by how much when some bits of life become stalled it actually seems to grind you to a total halt, I though it was just me being an utter slob but having chatted a bit to people (in a very non-emotional, I'm not letting you know life is feeling really shit sort of way) that it does seem to be 'a thing'. I could have achieved so much over the last two years, round the house, round my brain (reading, writing all that self-enhancement stuff) but what do I have to show for it? ...chaos, boxes still unpacked, a lack of any direction, tiredness, lots of weeds in the garden and my pet fibroid.

(But at least I'm a level 8 in Ingress (don't ask!))

Hmm, that's it for now, please do return, as normal service (whatever that is) may be resumed at some point...

(oh and P.S. for those who haven't noticed I have a little addiction to ellipses. This, I feel, is better than my previous addiction to exclamation marks which I mostly recovered from not that long ago. Does this change in itself say something about my life right now...)